The New Year is such a funny old time.
Some people will berate themselves for their 'failures' and dead resolutions of January past.
Others will find the energy of a fresh new start intoxicating and relaunch full steam ahead.
Many will move from one state to the other and back again.
Either way, I think for many, the New Year is an emotionally charged time.
On the back of a Christmas of nutritional indulgences, self-care routines that fell victim to the chaos, and extended periods with beloved family (and their unintentional challenges), well, the New Year comes when our resources are depleted and tanks are running low. So perhaps it isn't the best place to judge or mastermind our past and future selves from???
And yet it's such a lovely time to do it. There is such an enticing energy about a fresh new year.
Personally, I gave up on specific New Year's resolutions a long time ago but I do love to sit down at the year's close to 'reflect and project'. I generally choose a theme for my upcoming year* and get clear on the feelings I want to create more of for myself. I shared with you over on Facebook and Instagram my New Year's Ritual and will happily guide you through it further should you have more questions - you can even schedule a short action planning session with me for free here.
This New Year's Eve was a funny one for me though.
2018 was a HUGE year for me - new people, new places, personal challenges, magical arrivals, deeeeeep lessons and enough love to fill a universe.
So as midnight struck and the New Year arrived, I found myself surprisingly emotional.
Granted I'm a weeper at the best of times, but an uncharacteristic wave of dread and sadness struck me. Nothing a gentle squeeze from Graham couldn't calm, but enough for me to notice with intrigue.
The truth was, I didn’t want last year to end.
I didn’t feel ready for it.
I didn’t feel ready for Max to be 9 months old and on the move.
I didn’t feel ready for him to be deciding real food is far more exciting than breastfeeding.
I didn’t feel ready to start looking at our next international move when I feel we've only just settled down.
I didn’t feel ready to kick start the exciting business projects I have for 2019.
I didn't feel ready because it all made me too starkly aware of how fast time flies. How precious time is. And how if I'm not careful, I'll miss so much.
And so there in lies my message of today ~ my message to myself;
Time flies, so slow down, stay present and Soak. It. Up.
Because the truth is, I am SO excited for this year and all that's to come. I can't wait to dive into my work, move forward with my clients, continue to explore the world with my family and grow with Graham as parents and partners. But I now know, that as time flies, I have to slow down enough so that I can stay in that moment to take it all in. Not let my mind race ahead to what's next on the agenda. Not be having a future conversation in my head as I'm missing the current one I'm in. Not be planning the next meal as I'm failing to savour the one I'm eating. Similarly I don't want my nostalgia of the past and times flown by to make me miss the magic of the now - miss what IS happening as I try and cling to what HAS happened.
Yet it's all too easy to do - your mind takes you forwards or backwards in time and before you know it that present moment has gone and you missed it.
Well, enough of that I say.
This year and onwards, I pledge to stay more present. I pledge to be in the moment as consciously as I can be. Who knows if doing so will ever feel enough, or whether life will always move too fast, but I pledge to do my very best to soak it all in along the way.
Perhaps you'll join me?
And as we do so, let's take this moment right now, to be so grateful for the life we have. Grateful for our ability to steer it as we see fit, whether that be at the New Year marker or not. Grateful for the power of CHOICE that enables us all to move into and away from things we love and things we don't. And grateful for all of the blessings that make us wish to be so fully present in the front row of our beautiful, messy, brilliant life.
I wish you a very happy, healthy and present 2019.
So much love to you,
* P.S In case you were wondering, my theme for this year is 'sharing my gifts', so please wish me luck as I endeavour to move you and many more, vibrantly into a life you love - with more group coaching, live events, public speaking and more, I am very excited for this year. And if you'd like to be amongst the first to hear about my upcoming 6-week group coaching programme, pop your details into the box below and i’ll keep you in the loop. x